so today when i was flying from bangalore to pune, i guess it really sunk in.... the fact that i am going to be leaving this place that i now call home.... all my life i have been a bit of a restless wanderer but somehow in this small city i have found myself and my peace... it struck me that i am not going to be calling this city home for much longer... you were partying in nyc and somehow i just needed to be alone... didnt want to talk or chat or anything... when i came in i felt relief mixed with sadness that i am not going to be here any longer.... u actually picked up on it but i didnt want to get into a major discussion while you were at ur friends place in nyc so i brushed off your concerns..some of the things i thought about while i was in bangalore

1. i am going to try my best to set up this import export thing... have a really good contact and think i can do it

2.school.... well i have ambivalent feelings abt it, have to check out how long it is going to take, is it going to help me in my career path , is it worth the expenses, how much more am i going to learn etc etc

3.spinning.... want to take a class as an instructor.... will be fun and plus wont have to pay gym fees to work out :)

4.the thing u said the other day about me encroaching on ur space nagged me a bit.... wasnt totally comfortable with that...

plus so many random things like i want our house to be full of color... i want to go out and do things that i dont get an opportunity to do here.... want to travel want us to have a harmonious marriage....

with you i am happy... and i can be myself no pretences, totally let my guard down and know that i love you.... i never knew love could be so good or make me so happy..and funny now that i have put my thoughts down here i feel much much better :)

I love you more than you know....