it was a funny feeling when i read your "new name" on the checkbook box... as much as you prepare yourself for the big day, it's little things like these that really drive the point home... i thought, it wouldn't be until wedding day, or the day i landed in india that the thunderbolt would strike me, and i would freak out and shiver and have an life altering nervous breakdown... :0 of course, exaggerating a bit here, but you get the drift - i was preparing myself for some kind a of nervous feeling a couple of days before the BIG day... i don't even know if "nervous" is the right word, cuz it implies some negativity and stress... its more "butterflies in the stomach" type of feeling... "can't believe it's finally happening" kind of a feeling... i don't know why i am going great lengths to describe it... you know exactly what i am talking about... :-)

so, when i saw the name of the checkbook, all kinds of emotions and thoughts crossed my mind... some that i could latch on to, and others which i couldn't comprehend... i recall thinking, "boy! you become a man now, your name is now someone's middle name"... that's an awesome feeling in some ways... you suddenly feel so grown up and important... the immediate next thought was far less ethereal and totally unromantic - i was like - does a person with this even legally exist?

just some random thoughts... i have inferred that i am beyond the point of freakin out... i like you too much that thoughts like these don't even seem to touch me...

love you ya!