boy, it's been a while since the last posting... lots transpired since the last time i wrote up here... got married, wifey moved in, have been on a chicago exploring spree over the past four months... the four months have been an awesome ride... never thought married life could be so much fun... done a ton of fun things around town with the wife, been working out fairly regularly, was lucky enough to be on all local cases for the the four months, and now that i have been asked to hit the road, the firm couldn't have sent me to a better place - Budapest... it's going to be one helluva time...

for those timid single souls out there, here's a word of advice - if you can deal with the following four phrases, you should think of the M word, maybe you are ready for it -
- my back hurts
- give money
- i want to go home
- let's make a list

poojaism - mhatari zaali mhanoon lagna karte...

excitement,fear, trepidation, nervousness, hapiness, anticipation , relief ,love ,regret these are some of the emotions that are running amok in my mind now... only a few more days until i see you again, i cant believe this wait is almost over.. and then will begin the whirlwind of events leading to the wedding... i have gotten to know you a lot better in the last 4 months so i dont regret this time, but i have missed you so many times... i think we have managed to be remarkably clued into each others lives which is pretty amazing.... now that the wait is we are about to embark on this new journey of marriage...i am really looking forward to it... you are so different than me in so many ways and at the same time we have a lot of things that we share... i somehow know in my gut that you are perfect for me... i cant wait to see you on the night of the 18th and be with you again... i love you raja

the big day is just around the corner, and the anticipation is reaching a near crescendo... without a doubt, we are both embarking on the biggest journies of our lives, and the excitement is palpable on either side... what's amazing is how calm both of us are this point... its amazing how close we have become in the last 3 months despite the distance and the timezones... i could have never had thought we would survive these last 3 months so well... of course, it was a bit tough at times when all you want to do is be with each other and the best you can do is hear each others' voices... but we survived all that and i feel like that has made our love stronger... i can't wait to be greeted by your big grin and a warm hug when i land in mumbai on the night of the 18th... after that point on, it will be my job to make sure the grin and the warmth never disappear :-) i love you chonu!

finally dec is here... this is the last and final stretch of seperation.... just 18 days until i see you again... am really looking forward to seeing you at the airport and giving you a big hug and a kiss regardless of who is there with me...sometimes it feels a bit surreal like is this happening to me? am i really getting married.... i have to pinch myself to make sure that this is happening...but deep down i know this is meant to be... you are 'The One" corny as that may sound... i swear i am so sure than corniness is contagious...1 thing i know for sure.... even though I know that things arent always going to be this smooth and sweet I love you more than I have loved anyone...and that makes everything worthwhile for me

it was a funny feeling when i read your "new name" on the checkbook box... as much as you prepare yourself for the big day, it's little things like these that really drive the point home... i thought, it wouldn't be until wedding day, or the day i landed in india that the thunderbolt would strike me, and i would freak out and shiver and have an life altering nervous breakdown... :0 of course, exaggerating a bit here, but you get the drift - i was preparing myself for some kind a of nervous feeling a couple of days before the BIG day... i don't even know if "nervous" is the right word, cuz it implies some negativity and stress... its more "butterflies in the stomach" type of feeling... "can't believe it's finally happening" kind of a feeling... i don't know why i am going great lengths to describe it... you know exactly what i am talking about... :-)

so, when i saw the name of the checkbook, all kinds of emotions and thoughts crossed my mind... some that i could latch on to, and others which i couldn't comprehend... i recall thinking, "boy! you become a man now, your name is now someone's middle name"... that's an awesome feeling in some ways... you suddenly feel so grown up and important... the immediate next thought was far less ethereal and totally unromantic - i was like - does a person with this even legally exist?

just some random thoughts... i have inferred that i am beyond the point of freakin out... i like you too much that thoughts like these don't even seem to touch me...

love you ya!

marriage.... well before i met you i thought it was something i would only hear about never really experience first hand.... there were a lot of misses... chances that i didnt want to take or that people didnt want to take with me...but now that i am on the threshold (so to speak) i find that i am looking forward to it with a lot of excitement...i realised one thing that for the first time in my life i can just be myself and thats enough for you.... all this time either i have tried to be something i am not or the person has wanted me to curb certain aspects of my personality... but with you i am just myself, warts and all and you still think i am pretty cool... where have you been all my life ya?